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"Well, my story is actually too long to all write down but there have been some things in my family and different situations that started bringing me stress when I was about 12. I couldnt make friends for fear of touching that person or for fear of being gay. As funny as it seems, it became a nightmare.
I knew I wasnt gay but I had trouble with people sometimes because I always had a feeling in my stomach that bothered me. And I frequently had to go to the bathroom alot. On top of that I take medicine for ocd and I have a touch of aspergers. When I found out that I had aspergers I knew my cousin had it, and that it makes you act like a kid. Not too bad.
Well, I decided to make a big change to go back to public school after 4 years of homeschooling. The kids started harrasing me and saying I was shy and gay. Then I started feeling afraid of them and I knew I wasnt that way. Then I started telling myself I'd never have friends, and I started feeling afraid of everyone. I invited a friend over to my house and I had raised anxiety about that.
The last time I had invited a friend over I had extreme feelings of anxiety and i thought they were sexual so I felt embarrassed around my friend. I started thinking I was a retard and that I couldnt talk. When I'd pass by a neighbor I would not say anything when really I'd want to talk to them, and I started saying to myself I wasnt outgoing. I felt cruddy. I felt like I couldnt talk to anyone when everyone was talking around me at school.
I was afraid they'd laugh in my face. I felt sad and alone. Its still that way a little bit,but I know I'm not gay and know I'd definately not want to hurt my friend. It started with a little anxiety and excalated. Now I'm going into my senior year. I'm still trying to figure out who I am, and am presently seeking help with medicine and a counselor. The medicine seems to make me hyper though, but its helping. I encourage anyone who has this to seek help immediately. Counseling helps the best! Well, thank you for listening to me story."
Hannah
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